Deep breath. Here goes…
I’m going to write a book in the next 90 days.
There, I said it. And it scares the hell out of me.
Not because I’m afraid of writing. I love to write. I’ve been writing professionally for more than twenty five years – first as a copywriter, then as an “information designer”, now as a blogger. Getting words out of my head is the easy part.
I’m also not afraid that people won’t like the book. I know that if I write it the way I want to write it, there will be an audience for it. Might be a small audience, might be gigantic audience. All I know is no matter the size, it will be the right audience.
The effort doesn’t scare me. I’ve buckled down and produced something new many times before. I’m actually excited to have a meaningful, sizable project.
No, what I’m afraid of is not following through this time. You see, just two days ago my Facebook feed prompted me with one of those “memory” posts — you know, where it says “1 year ago today, here’s what you posted.” It also gives you the option of looking at everything you’ve ever posted on that particular date. Well, wouldn’t you know it, five years ago — at this very same moment of the year — I announced that I was going to write a book.
I talked about it, posted about it, told all my friends about it, announced it to the world…
…and never wrote it.
I just caught myself involuntarily shaking my head at myself as I wrote that last sentence. That broken promise to the world (and to myself) is one of my few regrets.
However, today I’m not beating myself up. Today I’m celebrating because I’m ready. I’m committed. And I have what I think is a pretty darn good idea for a book that will help people get more fully engaged in life and work.
Today I know that my past does not equal my future. When I look back five years ago, I wanted to write a book because I thought I should write a book. Today, I want to write a book simply because I want to write a book.
Today, the thought of NOT writing a book scares the hell out of me. And that’s exactly why I’m starting it…today.
So, why am I telling you this? Well, first of all, you’re my friends and I wanted to tell you about this big thing I’m doing. Second, I wanted you to know why I may slow down on the blogging for a little bit while I knock this thing out. Finally, I needed to face my fear so I can remove that stupid obstacle once and for all. There’s no better way to do that than saying your fear out loud and sharing it with the world.
Got any fears keeping you from something big? That reply box below is a great place to state ’em out loud. I’ve got your back. So does everyone else who reads this, I promise.